Early In Recovery? It Will Be OK . . .

“I sure remember those early days when I first went into treatment, in patient first for 2 or so weeks, then out-patient treatment and group for 5 months. It had been my first suicide attempt from my a huge gambling binge! This was set off by a few “life events tragic” happening all around me and I just snapped as all went BLACK!”

It was if my body and mind just said, “no more!”

Well, lucky for me I’m here writing and sharing this with you as that attempt failed. Now I understand and experienced why suicide is the highest among all other addictions currently. And It is very hard to describe what that felt like, the actual hopelessness and darkness surrounding you when you can’t see, hear, or feel anything. It is like your whole sensory is completely shut down. Not to mention the medical ramifications of what I had just done. I was also suffering undiagnosed bipolar issues as well.

It wasn’t until I was placed in a crisis center and properly diagnosed, started on medications, and finally started to come out of my fog and darkness that gripped me so tight. No, not a panic attack, I was suffering from gambling addiction. Our bodies are amazing specimens. But here was a little of what I learned about the mental and physical things that happen to you when you get to such an obsessed and manic state from gambling addiction to the point you feel better off dead than alive. Because you just want the madness, especially in your head to stop. Here is a little of what I researched and found out.

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“young woman leaned against glass wall in crisis moment”

“Courtesy of Everyday Health.com”

The risk-taking behaviors common with bipolar disorder can include an addiction to gambling.

People with bipolar disorder often engage in addictive behaviors. They may compulsively shop for things they don’t need, engage in frequent and risky sex, or spend long hours at the workplace.

They also are apt to engage in compulsive gambling. People who are bipolar tend toward behaviors that include spending too much money on lottery tickets, spending hours in front of video poker machines, and taking frequent trips to casinos.

Connecting Bipolar Disorder to Gambling
Bipolar disorder causes extreme swings in a person’s mood, energy levels, and ability to get things done. It’s also known as manic-depressive illness, a name which reflects these swings in mood. Patients can be overexcited and filled with joy and purpose in a manic episode, and then suddenly swing into a depressive episode, becoming sad, joyless, and drained of energy.

Researchers have found that bipolar disorder and gambling addiction often occur together. Half of all gambling addicts in the United States also have a mood disorder, according to one national survey. A Canadian study found that people with bipolar disorder were more than twice as likely to have a gambling addiction as someone in the general population. Another study found that, among those surveyed, a mood disorder preceded gambling addiction in 80 percent of the women and 58 percent of the men.

Bipolar Disorder and Gambling: What Research Suggests

The exact nature of the link between gambling addiction and bipolar disorder has not been fully explained by researchers. Doctors and mental health professionals tend to believe that gambling addiction may be linked to the highs or lows associated with bipolar disorder:

  • People with depression use gambling to self-medicate. This theory holds that patients use gambling to help themselves feel better during a depressive phase. The rush associated with the risk of gambling may help them rise out of their depressive funk.
  • Gambling reflects the impulsive nature of a manic phase. People in the grips of a manic phase often have impulse control issues. They may engage in kleptomania or go on an eating binge. Some researchers believe gambling might serve as another outlet for impulsive behavior.

Another possible theory is that compulsive gambling may be an early-onset form of obsessive-compulsive disorder, which people with bipolar disorder experience at an increased rate compared with the general population.

Treating Bipolar Disorder and Gambling

If people with bipolar disorder are self-medicating with gambling, that may mean there is a biochemical process they are subconsciously tapping into to ease their mania or depression. They are using a specific behavior to make themselves feel better because that behavior prompts the body to release hormones or neurotransmitters that naturally treat their mood disorder.

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Several studies have shown the potential for bipolar disorder medications to also help people deal with a gambling addiction:

  • Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors, or SSRIs, are powerful antidepressants. Studies have found that SSRIs can reduce the need to compulsively gamble in some people.
  • Lithium, an often-used mood-stabilizing medication, also has shown promise as a bipolar disorder drug that treats compulsive gambling.Lithium reduces the impulsiveness associated with manic phases and could stop the addictive gambling that takes place when a patient is in the grip of mania.
  • Opioid antagonists like naltrexone (Revia) also may help by blocking the release of certain chemicals. Opioid antagonists work on nervous system receptors that respond to opiate drugs. It is thought that gambling and impulsive behavior causes the release of biochemicals that interact with these receptors, causing a feeling of pleasure and reducing the person’s sense of impulse or urge. By replacing those biochemicals, opioid antagonists reduce the person’s need to gamble to make himself feel better.

Psychotherapy directed at treating bipolar disorder also might help treat a gambling addiction, some research suggests. If the person becomes better able to deal with his mania and depression, he will be less likely to pursue gambling as a means of relieving his symptoms. A combination approach may bring the best results for this difficult combination of disorders.

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When I read this little article, bells went off!!  I was so “out there” mentally and emotionally, that I to was given lithium for awhile in my treatment plan for bipolar.
Because my urges and triggers were constant! The impulses were very out of control that I needed the lithium for that reason.

And as my blog post title says, “It Will Be OK.” Early recovery is hard. I never sugar coat how hard it is. But when you are “dual diagnosed” meaning you are in recovery from addiction and living with mental health, at times in early recovery it was like an uphill battle. When I was released from the crisis center and entered the treatment out-patient program? I did pretty well for about the first 90 or so days. But, no one told me the facts about percentages of early recovery relapse ….

A wonderful video to watch about warning signs and relapse prevention is here on  Addiction and Recovery .org  … I also have a  full workbook & guide here on my blog resources page for “Relapse Prevention”…  You need to have a plan ready when you start recovery. Don’t forget, the journey will be a lifetime. But the longer you refrain from gambling, the faster your triggers, urges, and impulses go away, and you can break free from the cycle of this cunning addiction.
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I am being Honest, It will be OK. Life will get so much better in Recovery!

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A Friend and Blog You Need To Spend Some Time Reading and Exploring By: Deborah Ann Palmer . . .

Hello Recovery Friends and Welcome New Friends,


I love taking time out of my day to visit and explore the any blogs and the bloggers who own them, especially the followers who have been kind enough to stop by both my Recovery blog and my Book Promotions blog.
(My Book Promo Blog) https://anAuthorandWriterinProgress.wordpress.com

My dear friend Deborah has a wonderful blog that she shares all her fabulous talents. She shares poems, short stories, photo’s, and re-shares many of her favorite blogs she comes across. Deborah is a very special person. She works so hard, not only for herself, but she also takes care of her brother, Stephen. Now you can see this when you visit her blog. She is an advocate and activist when it come to her brother as he has disabled. So go for a visit to here blog and be inspired!
She has a loving heart, a strong spiritual faith and am so blessed to call her my friend, Deborah Ann Palmer . . .


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Espiritu en Fuego/A Fiery Spirit   Espiritu en Fuego — A Fiery Spirit Expressing Herself

Treasure in Broken Vessels

Treasure in Broken Vessels

The Many Noble Truths of the Buddha and Jesus Christ

“When I know the glass goblet is already broken every moment with it becomes precious.”Paraphrased from documentary film The Buddha”

2 Corinthians 4:7 (New King James Version)

7 But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, which the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us.

Would I experience the Love of God more fully as an ascetic or renouncer? No I would focus only on what I was missing, not getting any closer to God but in total concentration of the absence of comfort or pleasure.  The more we try to mortify the flesh the more we see we cannot transcend the body while existing in this earthly realm.  Deprivation as practiced by some ascetics or mystics and prophets is not necessarily the best spiritual path for the average seeker.  Some austerity is necessary so that we are not consumed by the material world but to isolate and deny our very human bodies the daily necessities can open the door wider to a sense of failure or discouragement.  We must try to find  balance in our lives.  At one end is the ascetic, at the other end the hedonist/sensualist.  Most of us flow best in the middle ground with occasional visits to the polar ends.  Separated from our source we yearn to return.

As prophets and/or enlightened beings both the Buddha and Jesus had similar universal themes of overcoming temptation, a wilderness experience with the tempter, both mystics emerged triumphant.  Realization that the Kingdom of God is within us enabled these two very different men, who lived in different time periods, from different cultures, in different parts of the world to have similar spiritual revelations which now have millions of adherents worldwide.

Bliss or self-actualization comes with accepting our interconnectedness with the world, yet not being of the world.  Subconsciously we are all craving with a burning desire to become one with the Beloved.  This craving may lead us down several spiritual and secular pathways during our lifetimes before we achieve our own individual enlightment.  As a Christian I take refuge in the scriptural jewels offered to me within the Biblical scriptures, yet not discounting other belief systems or spiritual pathways.  As I explore many different faiths side by side with my own I find more similarities than differences.  Like my Buddhist sisters and brothers I find sanctuary in the Love of God, the teachings of Jesus, and various pastors, evangelists, or teachers who have a more extensive knowledge of the Bible than me, who can help me increase my understanding of scripture.  With that said as believers in any denomination we must study the scriptures for ourselves rightly dividing the word of truth so we are not carried away with doctrines of false prophets.  Beware those who misuse and misconstrue God’s Divine Word for their own personal profit and gain.

I can truly say the Bible speaks to me.  What does your holy scriptures say to you?  Like many of the faithful I find comfort in rites, rituals, ceremonies and sacraments of my church.  It’s familiar.  It’s comforting.  If suddenly I attended church one Sunday and everything was out of sequence I would definitely be uncomfortable, wonder what was going on and if I was in the right church.  However too much restrictive structure and adherence to doctrine and dogma can inhibit the spiritual growth of the congregation for this reason many people turn to secular and social organizations that offer morals, values and intellectual growth without the mythology.  Churches, social organizations and clubs also satisfy the need for companionship and fellowship.  As human beings we need to belong to a body of people with similar interests, goals and desires.  We desire a place to fit in and be accepted for who we are as individuals.  Churches, social organizations, clubs, guilds and professional organizations offer a type of safe space or sanctuary where we receive positive reinforcement that enables us to cope with the not so positive chapters in our lives.
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Beloved Transcended

Divine fragrant Lotus Rose petals fell upon the body of the ascended one and the veil was rent from top to bottom.  We his followers make pilgrimage to the Holy City in remembrance of Him.

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Excerpt from the poem “One Whisper of the Beloved” by Rumi

In truth, everyone is a shadow of the Beloved –
Our seeking is His seeking,
Our words are His words.

At times we flow toward the Beloved
like a dancing stream.
At times we are still water
held in His pitcher.
At times we boil in a pot
turning to vapor –
that is the job of the Beloved.

He breathes into my ear
until my soul
takes on His fragrance.
He is the soul of my soul –
How can I escape?
But why would any soul in this world
want to escape from the Beloved?
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Addiction says…..

What a POWERFUL POST……Sometimes we need the SHOCK VALUE to get the Real Message!! My girl LORELIE has a way with Words! *Catherine*

Living In A World Of Hope

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Hey little girl, come over here. I’ve got something you might need.

A pill to make you pretty, oh yes, indeed!

My name is addiction, I’m a snake in the grass,

When I’m finished with you – you’ll be kissing my ass.

I am cunning, and baffling, and powerful too.

I’m larger than life and bigger than you.

Shit nothing I say, is ever true.

Still, for me, there isn’t anything, you won’t do.

At first, I’ll be, your very best friend,

I’ll love you to DEATH – till the very end.

I’ll steal your thoughts, but you won’t know,

It’s no longer you, who’ll be running the show.

Your life will change, oh right away,

You’ll wake up wanting me, every day.

People will tell you, to leave me alone,

But you won’t listen, for you I own.

No one else, can interfere,

For if they do, they’ll pay…

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